Did demons create the delusions?
Nick Crutchley descends into paranoia, hallucinations and delusions in this character portrait of a young adult with Borderline Personality Disorder.
After Nick adopts another personality to cope with his shifting reality, his mind fractures.
Voices begin to whisper . . .
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Personality Disorder Awareness Network (PDAN)
Mental Health - UK
Women in Need
National Education Alliance - Borderline Personality Disorder (NEABPD)
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I wrote Deadweight seven years ago, then buried it. Since then, I have formally been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). After seeing the suffering of others with BPD during therapy, in accounts bravely blogged, and in posts on social media, something within decided to exhume Deadweight. This autobiographical novel is therefore not about me, it’s about you.
Like me, you may have found yourself trapped within anxiety, hallucinations, rapid mood swings, delusions, disassociation, suicidal compulsions or a fragile self-identity. Or, you are locked on the outside, and desperately wish to better understand partners, children and others in your life who suffer BPD or similar disorders. By placing the reader directly inside the soul of my younger self, Deadweight seeks to help sufferers feel less alone, and by evoking empathy in non-sufferers, aid the effort to promote a more compassionate society.
With loving kindness, I wish you well on your journey.